In the End..

I’ve always loved this quote but today it hit me deeply and profoundly. My family has been dealing with 2 devasting losses over the last 3 weeks. Heroin addiction is a beast all by itself, it’s now robbing us of almost an entire generation.  They lived hard and they loved even harder! Rest easy now, your struggles are over. ❤️ Hate the disease, not the addict  

Our Deepest Fear…

It’s been a very emotional couple of weeks.. our family lost another to the epidemic that’s stealing a generation… so sad… if you pray, please send my family and friends love. 

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson 

There’s  a Reason for every Season..

My grandfather, James J Laraia, my first idol, my first love, left me with his most favorite quote he said “love one, love many, but love yourself best of any”. 

This quote was my family’s motto. I saw it handwritten and taped, as a “little girl”, to every refrigerator our small, but beautiful family had. I didn’t understand it, to that “little girl” it sounded selfish.

My family would say their own interpretation of what it meant to them but When I was that” little girl” I remember my Grandpa L saying “you can’t fully love someone else, until you can fully love yourself.

My grandfather was larger than life to me… his words that he left that “little girl” with was a journey of understanding what they meant.  

I think I finally get it… 

I love you Grampa “L” ❤️

Opps I did it again… 

Wtf is wrong with me??? Wtf is wrong with them? How do you meet someone and in under a month they are “in love”?? Really???? 

I’m learning my lessons a lot quicker, but still making really bad choices…. maybe I’ll never get it right, maybe I will? I’m trusting my gut, I’m trusting my first instinct. I will never, ever settle or accept what is unacceptable in my life ever, never again.