Opps I did it again… 

Wtf is wrong with me??? Wtf is wrong with them? How do you meet someone and in under a month they are “in love”?? Really???? 

I’m learning my lessons a lot quicker, but still making really bad choices…. maybe I’ll never get it right, maybe I will? I’m trusting my gut, I’m trusting my first instinct. I will never, ever settle or accept what is unacceptable in my life ever, never again. 


I am Grateful….

I am grateful, God, for all you have given me, and ALL you have taken away. Thank you for the soundness of mind, the will to live and the desire to continue growing along spiritual lines. Thank you for relieving me of the bondage of self and of others, for taking away the pain and the suffering. I am grateful God that my faith in you allows me to live without fear today. Thank you for the self confidence and sense of well being. And thank you dear God, for making it possible for me to feel this way right now. I am faith-filled, fearless and free!

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When Love Is a Lie

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When Love Is a Lie

He’ll berate, belittle, insult, and destroy you….
Deceive, devalue, idolize, and ignore you…
He’ll block you then stalk you,
‘til you do what he taught you
His prize for The Lie is a chance to discard you

He’ll seduce and betray, confuse and neglect you
Without a single regret, he intends to infect you
In the blink of an eye, he’ll all but erase you
His venomous words are meant to disgrace you
He buried your soul down a dark rabbit hole
And planned your demise from the moment he met you

So, what do you feel? Do you know why you cry?
Is it fear that consumes us when love is a lie?
Is it hard to let go if it’s all that we know?
If the bad that he is, is as good as it gets
We must look to our heart for it’s time to reflect
Make him fade into black from the fear of attack
I am you, you are me, & we’ll never be back
Bitter and broken, on the wind it was spoken
From a dream, we’ve awoken
From a dream, we’ve awoken

By Zari Ballard – http://www.thenarcissisticpersonality.com/narcissists-lie-another-poem/